SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP

Feb. 5th, 2026 11:03 pm
setsuntamew: (Kohaku & Madara → we're in bloom)
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MADARA'S GLOBAL EXCLUSIVE 5* IS HERE AND THE UNBLOOMED IS HIM AND KOHAKU ON A FESTIVAL DATE I'M GONNA LOSE MY MIND


LOOK AT THEM LOOK AT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE IS REAL♥

I'm taking this in a very normal and rational way, as you can tell XD It's Kohaku's birthday and I was gonna make a nice post about that and maybe take some pictures of my nuis but noooooooooooo this hit and I'm losing my mind. I'm so fucking pumped it's everything I could possibly want and then some ;w;


honestly the whole lineup is good; I'm excited that Jun is the 4* too!!!!!

okay okay okay I'm trying to be calm about this but it's not going well XD I'M JUST SO EXCITED AHHHHHHHHHHHH

I mean I'm not excited that he's gonna run during the Eden climax in eng and right before the MaM fanthanx in jp, but what the fuck else was I expecting? Madara's always a pain in the ass ;D

tho nothing is worse than the Kanata experience last year....so much fish

tbh I keep getting so overstimulated (good trick) I have to close my laptop and play Katamari Damacy for awhile...idk it just makes me slow down a bit, and I'm like OFF THE WALLS with excitement. just. when a fictional character makes you go insane, you know???? It's overtaking my whole system ♥

also this starts the day before Liz's birthday so I guess this is some sort of response to Kanata's event running during my birthday last month XD

Mood Theme: Done!

Feb. 3rd, 2026 11:01 pm
setsuntamew: (Yohane → welcome to my graveyard)
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I FINISHED MY SECOND MOOD THEME!!!!!!!!

I mean I'm now kinda behind on grinding the jp event, but I accomplished the very cool thing of mood theme creation~ I've now made two separate themes, so I'm feeling pretty badass ;D

Unfortunately, enstars isn't super popular on dreamwidth, so I doubt it's what people are looking for...but I don't really care cuz I make things that I like, first and foremost XD Though I'm not actively using it here, I did post it at [community profile] killiansicons for anyone interested!

.........anyway I know I just finished this theme and I have an event to run, but I was thinking of doing a differently styled mood theme next!! I have all the card assets because enstars changed how they put cards together in the app, so I can finally do what I had initially envisioned for an enstars mood theme: make them with the card borders!!


something like this, probably!!!

I'd make it of all the characters, and since there are over 50 of them I could even just use 5 star cards for all of them (to match the borders). I'm still torn on if I want to do editing for every single image, because doing too much is why I always stalled out on mood themes in the past. But I'm really proud of this design and definitely wanna do something with it eventually.

Other than that......I gotta get back in the trenches (grinding songs in enstars) so I can get all the Mayois my heart desires ♥

OH RIGHT LIZ BROUGHT HOME THE BUTTON MAKER FROM WORK AND I'VE BEEN MAKING ENSTARS BUTTONS!!!!!!!! It's been fun uwu

Photoshop gonna end me----

Feb. 2nd, 2026 01:03 am
setsuntamew: (Mayoi → splashes of vibrancy)
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There is an evil within me, and it says: "make another mood theme"

I am debating making an ALKALOID one, but I also have to actually grind the jp event, you know? And it's sooooo time consuming, and the last time I made a mood theme I was basically a man possessed, and I don't wanna miss out on getting a bunch of copies of Mayoi!!

.....so we'll see XD

Finally posted icons to [community profile] killiansicons because it had been a hot minute. I'd been fighting the feeling of inadequacy for not having "enough" to post, but I managed to convince myself that I was being fucking stupid.

Uhhh it's still fucking cold here and it keeps icing over, which is making digging ourselves out of the snow a real pain. Pat finally managed to find some ice melt at a grocery store, so that should help. And Liz is apparently a fucking beast at shoveling ♥ Which means our driveway may be cleared some time before spring. And then I can hopefully stop feeling so trapped ;w;

Needless to say, I'm kinda over winter at this point...and it's supposed to snow some more throughout the week. plz no more!!!! I'm done!!!!!!

I wanna be able to leave the house with ease!!!!!!!!!!

okay that's all I'm gonna either grind the event or get lost in mood theme hell, and even I don't know which~

Mayoi x2 for Meeeeee 💜

Jan. 31st, 2026 11:25 pm
setsuntamew: close crop of Mayoi with a pink and purple light texture over him (Mayoi → sanrio collab)
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I got Mayoi in both events that started today!!!!!!! :D




......even if it meant pulling an all-nighter for the JP event. I had planned that one, but the accidental one I pulled the night before made it hellish. Do not stay up two days in a row...my skin hurts ;w;

Worth it though ♥

I took a nap in the afternoon but I'm still feeling beat, so I don't have a whole lot to say. So I'll leave y'all with the nui brigade that kept me company while grinding JP for 8 hours straight.


Liz brought a button maker home from work and I used it for evil (making Mayoi buttons)
setsuntamew: Mayoi grinning while singing, with bright yellow as the main focus color (Mayoi → so bright you have to look)
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I have, and his name is Mayoi Ayase *w* Which is to say, the next event is not MaM, and is instead ALKALOID!!! AND MAYOI IS THE CENTER FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I just knew he was gonna be the center for the fanthanx, I knew it! I feel so validated ;D

ALSO JUST. HELLO. GOD HE'S SO GORGEOUS EVEN WHEN HE'S WEARING THE MOST QUESTIONABLE OF THE FANTHANX OUTFITS SO FAR. ALL OF THE FANTHANX OUTFITS HAVE BEEN INCREDIBLE; WHY MUST ALKALOID GET A WORSE VERSION OF THE TRICKSTAR ONES??????? IT'S NOT FAIIIRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! Me and the homies (friends in a discord chat) were crashing out last night because Mayoi is just so beautiful and we couldn't wait for the song to drop. Like, how dare they reveal the event and then make us wait 3 hours for the MV???? It dropped at 4 am my time, which is inconvenient when your wife has to work at 8:30 am.

....we totally didn't mean to stay up for it but oops we did anyway and holy shit it was worth it. The plaid outfits are (mostly) redeemed; the song is so fucking good that it made everything better!!!!! And the outfits honestly look better in motion, so there's that.

Anyway, in my defense, they did use possibly the most boring frame of the whole MV as the thumbnail, so what was I supposed to think?


like look at this shit!!! they're all just standing very still, despite 99% of the MV being incredibly dynamic :T

My other main gripe is that this isn't very Valentines, you know? 'Cause this is running in the usual time slot for that...I guess the Megasphere finale could be our Valentines event, but it's doubtful, especially since the holiday campaign is starting this week.

bluhhhhh

Though apparently Mayoi's first center event ran in this exact time slot despite being sky pirates, so???? What do I fucking know XD I should really stop trying to predict what the hell they're gonna do, because half the time they just do whatever the hell they want.

oh god right---

Speaking of Mayoi events, I cannot fucking believe he's overlapping with an ENG event where he's a 5* but he sure is!!! The Plum Blossoms event also starts on the 31st, though I guess the JP event starts about 12 hours earlier because of time zones. BUT STILL. Plus Blossoms was the first ever event I played in JP and I got two copies of the Mayoi from it, so he kept me company in green songs for the first year or so I played. So I was planning on maxing him in ENG, because I love him, but now his fanthanx is here. sobs.

plz let the SCR of his fanthanx outfit be bad. plz. I can't afford to max two different events at the same time I'll die

I'm determined to get Mayoi in the first 24 hours tho, so I'm probably gonna just stay up all night playing. Maybe gonna hop in the voice chat in the one of the enstars servers I'm in and stream me playing (probably badly esp once it's like 6 am lmao) so I have some company. idk. I'm just excited!!!

OH LOL SO ANYWAY. One of the enstars discord servers I'm in started as the chat for anyone interested in tiering in War Atop the Sugoroku Board event, but as since just turned into a small, chill chat. It's got some people who produce different units than other chats we're in, which means Liz and I finally have someone to talk about Eden with ♥


I did impulse tier in that event, but tiering in Last Mission was 100% on purpose and I'm still so glad I did ;w; Double Face forever!!!! also lol 67 *shot*

.....okay this entry is long enough, I gotta stop because I've kinda run out of things to rant about properly, you know? And Pat is currently trying to dig the car out enough that we can go to Home Depot, since our shovel is actively falling apart while he's using it.

Goths in the Winter

Jan. 26th, 2026 08:49 pm
setsuntamew: (Tsumugi → bunny boy)
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You know what a foot of snow needs? Photoshoot in your backyard featuring a skirt you made in 2017 and then promptly forgot about!!! Pat very kindly braved the cold to bring my ~vision~ to life.


the skirt is so warm and the shirt was a poor life choice XD


I like to think I'm cute and funny, and I'm right~

At least now I know what I'm wearing to the ren faire this year ;D I made this skirt to wear to a vampire ball that Liz and I went to as part of our anniversary trip, and then just...never wore it again???? idk man, it looks good actually so I have no idea why I never found another use for it. Definitely wearing it in like, 9 months, when it's ren faire season. I've also just been wearing the skirt around the house because it's floor length, so it's keeping the warmth in. So yes, I'm wandering around with a black lace train like I'm living in the Addams Family, I guess XD

ANYWAY.

I did manage to make a few icons, so that's cool. I don't necessarily love them, but part of that is just...getting back into it...thankfully it's only been like 6 months so I'm not as rusty as I could be, but I still wish I could stay more on top of things and/or skip this stage.

And then the enstars event announcement is tonight and I'm sooooooo fucking anxious, since it's either gonna be MaM or ALKALOID, so my money is gone either way. If it's MaM, no one's gonna hear from me for a week while I grind out 22 mil points. sobs. It's just like.....some of my fave units have ended up last in the rotation and also why couldn't Madara have his event while I had a job and therefore more money to blow on a phone game? Like of course he waited until I had less disposable income. Bitch.

idk I don't have anything else to say, since I've been in the house all weekend. At least the snow is really pretty and we've had a fairly chill time just vibing. Trying to focus on the positives, you know?

snoooooooooooow

Jan. 25th, 2026 05:22 pm
setsuntamew: the name "Killian" and a large snowflake over a pale gray-blue background with white sparkles and animated snow (custom → 19)
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IT'S A WINTER WONDERLAND!!!!"

So it snowed basically all night and most of today before switching to freezing rain, which is decidedly less good but like. Whatever. It's still very wintery, and I like that...even if I'm not going out in it. It's way too damn cold!!!! Even after taping up a bunch of the windows in the house, we're all bundled up cuz the heat is only doing so well.

Other than that, I'm baking some cookies and debating trying to make icons again, since it's been...months.........all my photoshop skills have been going to [tumblr.com profile] ensemblerefs because that's less creative, I guess? It takes less brain thinking skills, at least.

I also wanna try to write something for [community profile] threesentenceficathon cuz it's one of my favorite yearly events...I'm just still fighting Mental Illness, you know?

also trying to get back in the habit of updating this and I'm like "how the fuck did I write such long entries????" I think I spent a lot of time rambling about enstars, so I guess...that's it XD

I mean I am upset about Hiyori fucking me over in the gacha, since there's a 50/50 chance that the next jp event is gonna be MaM (though the other option is ALKALOID so I guess I'm kinda screwed either way) and I need the rate up if it's Mama. I'm not saving up another 120+ memorial coins like I had to for Halloween Madara last year :T I'm just gonna max him during the event!!!!

..........also also I've made a lot of nui outfits in the past 6 months, so when I'm up to it I kinda wanna post them here. Dreamwidth is just such a better way to organize and hold onto things than everywhere else ;w;

New Year, Same Me?

Jan. 23rd, 2026 05:26 pm
setsuntamew: Madara from behind, in black and white, cropped so he's looking sadly to the right (Madara → emo in b&w)
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Which is to say...mental health has beaten my ass down so badly the past 6 months that I basically dropped off the (digital) earth. Work was busy up until the store I was working at shut down, so I got all the stress of retail during the holidays and having to do store closing stuff!!! GREAT!!!!!!!! And then without the structure of work, I fell off of taking my meds and have been struggling basically since the beginning of the year.

anyway.

I'm not gonna make promises about being on top of things again, but I do want to try to, since dreamwidth really helped me keep track of time when I was unemployed last year.

So. idk where I'm going here, but I will hopefully see y'all around some more ♥
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